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I have found that patience as it relates to certain things in my life is not the same. I do not have the same level of patience for waiting for people when I am ready to leave as I do for the time it takes to make my tea cakes from scratch and watch them bake. I run out of patience when I appear to be in a hurry to do something or wanting something to arrive. I have patience when I am taking care of patients or a baby, but when I am anxious about certain things and what I want is not instantaneous I lose my patience.
It is funny how that happens. On the onset it seems that I have patience, but when you dig underneath the surface I truly do not. I wonder why it is that I have patience in some areas, but not all. This writing prompt has caused me to examine that within me and I am going to journal about it and see if through prayer and times listening to God I can gain some clarity.
Maybe, this whole double minded view of patience is why in certain areas of my life I am still stuck. I am still stuck living paycheck to paycheck because my vision has not materialized fast enough for me. I am stuck being in debt because of the aforementioned reason does not yield me enough money to snowball my way out of it. As I write this out I am losing my patience with myself.
This is why, I am convinced that in and of myself I can do nothing. I have to rely on Christ because when I take my eyes off of Him and begin to look at me and my circumstances I begin to get discouraged. Discouragement can lead to you remaining in a stuck place. SO, I will not fix my eyes on the reasons that I am stuck I will pray that God will give me divine strategy and provision to become unstuck in my stuck places.